I'm Tired

I'm tired....
I'm tired of giving myself shots
I'm tired of progesterone suppositories
I'm tired of clomid and femara
I'm tired of internal ultrasounds
I'm tied of prenatal vitamins that seem to serve no purpose
I'm tired of prescriptions
I'm tired of following a "pregnancy" diet for half of every month only to find out I'm not pregnant
I'm tired of roller coaster emotions
I'm tired
I'm tired of no
I'm tired of paying for pointless medical bills
I'm tired of scheduled sex
I'm tired of counting cycle days
I'm tired of ovulation kits
I'm tired of pregnancy tests
I'm tired of painful periods
I'm tired of statistics
I'm tired of the unknown
I'm tired of the endless doctors visits
I'm tired
I'm tired of well intentioned advice
I'm tired of getting my hopes up
I'm tired of not getting my hopes up
I'm tired of smiling when I don't feel like it
I'm tired of not trusting in God
I'm tired of not being vulnerable
I'm tired of being vulnerable
I'm tired
I'm tired of wishing
I'm tired of hoping
I'm tired of waiting
I'm tired of God's silence...where is He?
I'm so tired

~Paige