At some point along this IVF journey, a part of me feared that it would all become routine; that I would get so caught up in the procedural elements of IVF and somehow miss the wonder of it all as God drifted to the peripheral.
But by God's grace, that didn't happen. In the middle of what seemed like the most important moment in our infertility journey thus far – the embryo transfer – God provided us with an awesome reminder that His is the hand that brings about new life.
As I sat there in the dimly lit room, save for the doctor's spotlight, I held Paige's hand and stared at the ultrasound screen. Nothing about it felt routine.
As I sat there in the dimly lit room, save for the doctor's spotlight, I held Paige's hand and stared at the ultrasound screen. Nothing about it felt routine.
And then we saw it.
After five years of struggling, waiting, and wondering what was to come, our eyes were now fixed on this fuzzy image of black and white. And as the doctor did his thing with the catheter, we watched as two dots of bright white on the screen seemed as if they were gracefully pushed out from a straw.
Those are our children. And had we never gone through this IVF process we would never have seen that moment. Few people have the privilege of watching that. But we did. And it caused us to worship.
After five years of struggling, waiting, and wondering what was to come, our eyes were now fixed on this fuzzy image of black and white. And as the doctor did his thing with the catheter, we watched as two dots of bright white on the screen seemed as if they were gracefully pushed out from a straw.
Those are our children. And had we never gone through this IVF process we would never have seen that moment. Few people have the privilege of watching that. But we did. And it caused us to worship.
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.
For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9
You see, the doctor could only go so far. He could position the tube in what seemed to be the most ideal place to drop the embryos. But just like he couldn't create the new strands of DNA that would be found in each embryo, neither could he now make the embryos implant. Medical science, with all of its advances in reproductive technology, is and will always be limited. Doctors and medicine can go only as far as God has said they can go. This has been freshly obvious to us through all of our fertility treatments.
Most of all, instead of pushing thoughts of God to the peripheral of our minds, this process has caused us to look to Him for help and hope. Thus we thank God for the way He is working through a difficult providence in our lives to point us back to our Creator and stand in awe of His power and love.
Most of all, instead of pushing thoughts of God to the peripheral of our minds, this process has caused us to look to Him for help and hope. Thus we thank God for the way He is working through a difficult providence in our lives to point us back to our Creator and stand in awe of His power and love.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6
~ David
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