Today I Cried in Front of My Boss.

I wrote the following thoughts after a difficult day at work last September. I didn't know at the time if I would ever publish it, but here goes...

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For right or for wrong, I have always tried to keep a wall of separation between my work life and my personal life. Today that wall came tumbling down. 

Today I cried in front of my boss at work. In a one-on-one meeting. Like cry cry - tears, snot, red eyes for the rest of the day. It was ugly!

If I listed all of the most embarrassing moments of my professional career in any job I've ever had, today's melodrama would sit at the top of that large heap of horrendous experiences.

Humbled. That's the best word I can find to describe it. Completely and miserably humbled. 

I suppose I needed that - both the cry and the humbling. More so the humbling, if I had to guess. The Lord knows how full of pride I am. Though I so often want to be perceived as the strong one, the unhurting human, the logical, emotionless rock, in reality I'm not any of those things. And despite my best efforts at pretending, I was painfully reminded of that truth today. 

How did God choose to show me both my sinful arrogance and my need for Him today? By letting me cry like a helpless baby in front of my boss.

I've run out of words for now. Maybe I'll close in prayer: "Dear Lord, Thank you...?"

~David